Blogmas today was honestly going to be canceled. I'm just running out of time, effort, and ideas if I'm frank with you guys. I've been working a lot lately and when I'm not working I've been trying to do a thousand other things. Working in retail this time of year is not fun, believe me. 

I didn't want to miss a post, after all this is the first year I've ever been able to actualy do blogmas and I really didn't want to let myself down. I'm honestly quite proud of myself for keeping it up for this long and I don't want to just throw that all away because I'm having a lazy unproductive day.

Days like this seem to be more and more common lately. I'm just really really tired all the time. My anxiety levels are at a ridiculous high and if I'm truthful I'm really struggling at the moment. I feel worried all the time. I've got a constant feeling of dread hanging over me, and I just feel like I've done something wrong even though I know I haven't. I'm really trying to keep my head above water but its just getting harder and harder. 

Christmas doesn't help either. I love Christmas. Its such a fun time of year but between the stress of getting everything sorted and worrying about how I'm going to pay for things, I don't have a lot of time to just relax. I'm really hoping my few days off over the xmas period helps. A few days to just not think about anything, to just enjoy myself and being around the people I like the most.

Regular blogmas posts will continue tomorrow I promise. I'm sorry for such a negative post today but I'm just really feeling a bit meh, and I just wanted to have a little rant. Getting it all out does feel good sometimes...

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